Pretty upsetting day much?:/
Sigh, i cant really talk about it here cos got so many eyes watching me.
Can’t post about it on twitter either, cos they’re more eye watching me there.
sighhh.
Well in conclusion,it sucks to be me.
Never given a chance to prove myself.haiyoooo.
And i really wish i had another elder sibling.
I mean, i know there are people who would be willing to listen to me.
Let’s name some shall we?
hmmm,
Ramitha,Ashok annae,Claire,Nadia,Syakurah,Jing yi,Ericka.
I mean, these are the ones i instantly think of when i think of who’s close to me.
But these guys dont live under my roof.
I really wished i had another normal sibling.
My brother can really love you,but never show it.Hence, whenever i lament my problems to him, its like talking to a wall,you’d never get any consolation,but just a expression that you can never read.
I dont like talking about such minute matters to my mom.I know i treat her as my bestie and all,but there are just some things i dont want her to know.
Everytime im pissed/sad at home, i end up texting my friends cos my sibling can never understand.
And i really envy those with normal siblings.I mean,they complain to me about how annoying their siblings can get, it isnt any different here.But when they tell me how loving their siblings are,and being there for them at the times they need,i realise how diff my bro is from them.
I know my bro loves me a lot, but at times, i need him to lend me shoulder.Sth that i know would never happen.I dont blame him.Thats why i just wished i had another normal elder sibling.
Lending me a shoulder reminds me of kishore.
sigh.i know i’m over him,but at times, i miss how he used to care for me.
its not that no one cares for me now.
im sure my besties would be there to listen to me.But you know, its a diff kind of consolation.
I think that majorly, there are 3 types of consolation for a teen(at least for me :P)
siblings,friends,boyf/girlf.
Each type differs.
I know i’d never experience the first one.
Ofc i’ve had loads of the 2nd one and im really thankful for each and every soul who took the effort<3
well as for the last one, i rest my case.LOL.
the only thing i regret out of that relationship was having to have been cared for in a uber special way.
im not being desperate for a boyf here k-.-
cos i know my priorities well, with o’s up this year, i dont want anyth in my way.
what i mean is that i just miss being something to a guy whom i adore.
sigh.i should prolly stop here cos im starting to sound so annoying.
LOL.k,bye :)