Soo,today i felt giddy and vomitted in school.Plus my wrist felt so numb.
Went home to rest uh.
Just got back from doc.Blood pressure’s low,been straining my eyes too much.
So conclusion of doc?
I’m stressed.LOL.
I knew i was stressed up,but i swear i didnt know that it could lead to such side effects.
I thought i could handle stress well.
Well,guess not.LOL.
Sigh,i really dont know how i’m going to manage it & its only the first month.
Good lord save me.I just want to survive this shit and move onto poly.
I should probably go talk to sujuno soon.
Sighh,i really dk what to do to relieve this stress.I mean everyone tells me not to worry,but how not to when im like afraid that i cant make it next year?I dont wanna be crying due to disappointment.At the same time, i want to maintain my sanity.LOL.
And i’ve got to go to national skin clinic for my goddamn head tmr.
Soooo,i’ve missed so many lessons already.Physics & chem test on wednesday.
There’s gonna be bio test every friday.ARGHH.
k uma shut up now.
LOL.
anyways,side tracking abit,i’m like match making dakshaini and ashok annae for their date sometime after valentine’s day cos both also on that day not free-.-
Like cute or what,he telling me what he intends to do and i can like literally picture it.
They’ll look so cute tgt :3 But i really hope dachu doesnt ruin this entire date or i swear i’ll kill her-.-
Speaking of valentines,i got my gift for piggy already :D
I really hope she likes it sia :P
Annnddd,i pissed her off ytd abit,i’m sorry piggy :(
I hope my valentines gift would make up for it.
And piggy,i know its gonna sound stereotypical,but just be patient about your love life,there is someone out there for you,but just that you can’t identify him as of yet.Dont be sad about it :(
And i can’t believe i was sucha drama queen yesterday.Gosh,i see all the texts and sent the both of them yesterday night and i’m like,wtf was i thinking-_-“
I should have just said yes at the start,and could have avoided all those drama.sheesh,i swear i’d be a good actress.LOLOLOLOL.
At the same time,im afraid that im taking things too fast.Like i mean,u guys can see whats happening to me already,its the first month only im like this,i just dont want another hurdle on my way ,cos honestly after the lecture the doc gave me,i dont think i can handle it :(
Dear god,please induce some sanity in me and lead the way :(

I’ve been wanting to change my theme for so damned long already.
Finally found something simple and nice.
Besides, i can change the background colour to my liking.
Was playing around with it for the past 20 minutes.LOL.
After a longgg time, i went for a jog today,with my parents :)
I really ought to start jogging often, to train for cross country & sports day!:D
Sooo,i’m done with half of my homework already,will finish the rest by tonight,and revise the entire day tmr!
Annndd,ashok annae’s coming over tmr,before his match at OPSS,to teach me physics!^_^
hopefully,i dont scare him off with my awesome knowledge of physics.LOL.
Shall go and continue doing hmk,byeeeeeeee :D

Hi again guys!:3 Today was MAJORLY FUN FUN FUN.LOL. K wait,i abit pms in the morning ah,bt it got btr w all my classmates<3 Was lmao-ing all the way in bio,until I was tearing.I am really truly and sincerely gna miss all those monkeys!!! Hahahaha,okay so,in the evening,i went to eat w haresh annae,sakti and ramitha :) Andd,i hope I was much nicer today,compared to last week?:) Ahahah,and halfway haresh annae brought us to yishun dam. U HAVE NO IDEA HOW CHIO THE SUNSET WAS!!!:O Camwhored w the three of them,bt I aint sure if sakti or ramitha uploading them._. LOL. Best part was when halfway we realized we abandoned divian(Y) I was literally lmao-ing cos we totally forgot abt him. Then went t fetch him,and headed to ssc cos they wanted gong cha. Ramitha and sakti went to buy and left me alone w divian and haresh annae-.- Like awkward or what sia,they asked me to tell my “love” story to them.whuutt.Awkward ttm-.-.- Bt haresh annae was real nice:) bt I bet divian’s gna make fun of me from now-.- Came home after that :) Had so much fun laughing w them and all.Makes me wish my family/cousins were like that.I mean,no matter what,im just ramitha’s bestfriend.Not her cousin,and I really wish I was her cuz :/ Anyways,was s’pose to mug w that pig bt she busy :( So im solo fr mugging tmr.sigh. Wish me good luck x.x Nites folks<3

Pretty upsetting day much?:/
Sigh, i cant really talk about it here cos got so many eyes watching me.
Can’t post about it on twitter either, cos they’re more eye watching me there.
sighhh.
Well in conclusion,it sucks to be me.
Never given a chance to prove myself.haiyoooo.
And i really wish i had another elder sibling.
I mean, i know there are people who would be willing to listen to me.
Let’s name some shall we?
hmmm,
Ramitha,Ashok annae,Claire,Nadia,Syakurah,Jing yi,Ericka.
I mean, these are the ones i instantly think of when i think of who’s close to me.
But these guys dont live under my roof.
I really wished i had another normal sibling.
My brother can really love you,but never show it.Hence, whenever i lament my problems to him, its like talking to a wall,you’d never get any consolation,but just a expression that you can never read.
I dont like talking about such minute matters to my mom.I know i treat her as my bestie and all,but there are just some things i dont want her to know.
Everytime im pissed/sad at home, i end up texting my friends cos my sibling can never understand.
And i really envy those with normal siblings.I mean,they complain to me about how annoying their siblings can get, it isnt any different here.But when they tell me how loving their siblings are,and being there for them at the times they need,i realise how diff my bro is from them.
I know my bro loves me a lot, but at times, i need him to lend me shoulder.Sth that i know would never happen.I dont blame him.Thats why i just wished i had another normal elder sibling.
Lending me a shoulder reminds me of kishore.
sigh.i know i’m over him,but at times, i miss how he used to care for me.
its not that no one cares for me now.
im sure my besties would be there to listen to me.But you know, its a diff kind of consolation.
I think that majorly, there are 3 types of consolation for a teen(at least for me :P)
siblings,friends,boyf/girlf.
Each type differs.
I know i’d never experience the first one.
Ofc i’ve had loads of the 2nd one and im really thankful for each and every soul who took the effort<3
well as for the last one, i rest my case.LOL.
the only thing i regret out of that relationship was having to have been cared for in a uber special way.
im not being desperate for a boyf here k-.-
cos i know my priorities well, with o’s up this year, i dont want anyth in my way.
what i mean is that i just miss being something to a guy whom i adore.
sigh.i should prolly stop here cos im starting to sound so annoying.
LOL.k,bye :)

Had an awesome day at school today :3
I swear,laughed till my stomached ached and cried!
i swear im gonna miss this bunch of retards<3



Other than that,school was pretty tiring cos my wrist hurts so badly that i found it so hard to write :(
Yes, i sprained my wrist-.-
Sigh, need it to get better soon.Im gonna be dying if i have to survive like with that pain :(

hahaha,look at this.

like alpe or what, the both of us, sending things to ourselves.LOL.
But i didnt mean mine though, i really have quite a number of people that i need to get valentine’s day gift for.And i really need to brainstorm quick if not end up like last year, i didnt do/buy anyth-_-
Plus, my bro’s birthday, friends’ birthday all clustering around the same time.
Im gonna be pretty broke soon:(
Annnddd, gonna be bringing food from home to save $$$$$.
I so sweet orh?LOL.
And when i tweeted about needing to get valentine’s day gift, many replied asking who.
Like i mean, can’t it be for a bestf or my best buds?o.O
Why must it be stereotypical that one gets a valentine day gift for someone they crush on?
Valentine’s day is a day to appreciate your love ones,no?
Hahahahha,bet darwina’s gonna be so proud of me if she sees me doing such in depth questioning & thinking, cos i do none of this in my literate essays.HAHAHAHA.